Hi!

As a 21-year-old in her last year of undergrad, I am not just questioning what I want to do after graduation but pondering large existential questions (as I find myself prone to) beginning with the classic “Why?” and “How?”

So, it feels a bit strange to promote myself as a person, especially online— but how can one begin to meet others and create in today’s modern age without doing so? I just hope that what I share here is honest, despite its clear aim to present myself in an appealing manner.

Yes, I act, sing, write. Yes, I’ve assistant directed, directed, stage-managed, and run fly. I’ve dipped my toes into the worlds of arts administration, design, technical production, and explored theatre from different languages and cultures— a rounded-ness I see necessary no matter what area of the field I end up in. But mostly I am just a person, who like all of us, is trying to find reason and fulfillment in a world that often obscures these pursuits. I’m a person who wholeheartedly commits herself to the things she cares about most. And for me, the method that has made the most sense to achieve this goal has always been art.

Philosophically speaking, I don’t think there is anything I can explore that hasn’t already been experienced by the human psyche. There is nothing I can create that has not existed in some similar form. I don’t see myself holding anything special or completely unique. Yet, I still have this urge to do something. To make something. To share a piece of myself.

There is something beautifully exhausting in our constant need to revisit these same “why’s” and “how’s” over and over and over again until the polished wood of a pencil rubs our fingers raw or the rubber soles of our shoes no longer support our feet. There is something beautifully terrifying about testing the limitations of oneself for the sake of art and expression, and therefore the sake of humanity’s most valuable core qualities. Although we may never create or experience anything entirely “new,” and despite never achieving perfection,– we will still find ways to innovate. While the fundamental traits of humanity may remain unchanged, the environment in which we exist continues to evolve.

I’ve spent these past four years at The College of the Holy Cross exploring theatre and academia in all the capacities that I can manage at once. There hasn’t been a single experience I would call worthless to my craft, particularly the ones that have left me with worn hands and tired feet. Reflection has been key. I’m lucky to even consider this unpredictable path. But I wouldn’t put all that I have forward if I didn’t believe in it.

I’m ready— to put in the work— to witness how I develop as a person and in return, thespian— to invent my own, most vulnerable version of what already exists.